Bye Felicia

Today was the last day with personal training. And I'm so glad to be done with him. The workouts were ok. I definitely feel it the next day. But when ask was said and done, i said goodbye and thanked him... he says nothing. You're welcome. Maybe.  But no good luck. No keep it up. No you can do this. Nothing. Not even a question about how i feel. Our even if I'm able to do this on my own. Aaaaahhhhh. So glad that's over!

Tomorrow i start the 21day fix. It's only 30 mins a day,  but it's everyday!  That's a huge commitment! There may be some days i double up on workouts, but we'll see.
I'm confident in the meal plan. It's not much different than what I've been doing. This just insures I'm portioning correctly.
9 days in i start the shake as a substitute. And the best part of this program is it helps teach you how to count if you're eating out at a restaurant. Or how to count if you're drinking alcohol. It'll be easier to just not drink!

Hubby is doing it with me so we'll see how that goes. It'll help motivate me but i don't know how to motivate him.

Wtf?

The beginning of this weight started about 2005. I was going through a break up. His mom taught me to enjoy "fat week" which is also known as our period.  Well,  i learned to love food. And i worked in pizza! Naturally pizza is my weakness.

I stopped caring about what i looked like & didn't immediately see what my weight was doing to me.  I was 180 lbs before i started to care. The largest i had ever been...and life happened. And i ate my feelings more than ever. Stressed =food.  Happinesss = celebrate with food. Depression definitely  = food.

Now up to over 200lbs, i decided to make losing weight a resolution. Needed to lose weight by July 1. & i did! I had lost 20lbs!

I started 10years ago at 140. That is my goal weight. If i don't meet it,  my muscles are a little too big. Or not enough fat is gone.  I wanna look cut but not crazy. I wanna be able to run instead of walk/run. I wanna be able to wear a size 9 again.

Still pushing through

So the number on the scale went up a little. The loss of a great trainer was hard. I hustle when I'm on my own, but it hasn't been enough to push the scale. The new trainer works a lot more weights than the last and its almost as if I'm gaining too much muscle. My workouts on my own have just been elliptical. This past week I stepped it up with more cardio circuit training and am finally seeing the scale move in the right direction. My goal is to be 190 by August 7th...which is the last day with the trainer.

Its the husband's turn to focus on weight loss. But in order to get ahead financially we can't do any more personal training. We just bought a 21 day workout program that also comes with portion control containers. This should help him a lot. Since living on the go is hard to eat right, I think this program is going to help a lot. I don't know what kind of workouts they are yet, but I know what works for me and I can help him push through when he hits a wall (especially since I'm also most over my wall).

This program comes with a lifeline if we are struggling! I think its going to be a great push for him to get to his weight goal.

Dedication

I finally broke 200 lbs! The last weigh in said 193!! That's 22 lbs in 12 weeks. Feeling very excited about all this hard work. Watching what I eat really matters. How hard I work out matters. Its all coming together!!

This past Monday I got a call from the trainer... He's moving back home to the bay area. 😥  I can financially do one more month with the trainer and he tells me he's moving. I was a huge mix of emotions. I started the training cuz he sounded (and looks) like he knows what he's talking about. I was gonna just hop on the machines and hope for the best. He showed me a couple other things and I was hooked on fitness. I even did some at home & my sister's house. I kinda felt like he was giving up on me. And then I went through the cycle of not wanting to continue this journey anymore. Just call it done and just maintain the weight.
I ate a donut. I had 4 pieces of pizza. I had 2 pieces of fried chicken. I ate a slice of chocolate cake. I had two cups of soda.... I went crazy!

The gym gave me a different trainer (who is just as hot as the last...if not more 😉). I decided to give him a try. It was good. I sweat my ass off, but it wasn't the same. I unfortunately woke up with this annoying cough and sore throat so I didn't work out today. Nor did I step on the scale to see how much I have gained in my downward cycle of a week.

I'm scheduled for monday, so I hope I'm feeling better by then. Good thing there aren't any plans this weekend. In going to rest up. I'm going to keep this wt loss thing! I started this journey for me. To be healthy for me. There are going to be bumps in the road to success, losing a good trainer may be one of those bumps. Doesn't mean I need to give up on myself. I've come off my high horse and am going to keep pushing.

Motivation

Tomorrow will be 5 weeks at the gym. I'm nervous for the weight part. Some people have started to notice but i don't.  And i know i could be much more strict when it comes to eating. If i cut out the pasta and hamburgers it would be much easier to drop weight. If i also go to the gym everyday instead of 2-3xs a week it would be much easier to drop weight.  I know what I'm doing wrong...or sabotaging my goals, but i also feel that having these things once in a while won't kill me! Pizza and fast food, on the other hand, will completely ruin my goal.

I heard a quote the other day from Jackie Robinson "it's not hard to be good... it's hard to be good everyday" and although he's talking about talent and baseball, i take it as eating right and working out. It means so much to so many different things.

I have one more month with the trainer.  I've learned a few things,  but I'm still at that point where i don't push myself hard enough.  Up on the treadmill i can push it out...but floor exercises are different.  Once the pain comes i wanna give up. And if I'm on my own I'll stop. With the trainer there to hold me accountable i push further.
I'm hoping this next month i can learn how to push through the pain on my own. Or at least feel the passion for wanting to push further.

I guess if i really think about it, i guess i could say i eat the more carb foods after I've done an awesome workout. Therefore not really feeling the results. If i can learn how to say no and buckle down on nutrition,  then I'm sure the results will be greater. Therefore giving me the drive to push harder...

Challenge created: 3-4 lbs a week or minute planks. I know the trainer will not push me to lose 4 lbs in a week, however, maybe i can tell him to push planks. ...oohhh burpees!  Add to the burpee reps!  That'll motivate me.

Running

I finally started running again.  2 mins on and 2mins off for 20minutes.  And that was after doing incline for 20minutes!  It felt so good to run again.  Think i may have to take the dog out this Saturday

Challenge accepted

And exceeded.  Not only did i lose the pound the trainer challenged... i lost 4 pounds!! Eating better and pushing myself to go to the gym have paid off.  Now if i can keep the same mentality for the rest of the year...

I quit!

It's about that time. It's been 14 years and 10 years that the weight started to go up. 

Things should be fairly easy come may 1st. My expectation is to be at goal wt by new years.  V said that's a long time from now... but i know if i do it right, I can be goal wt forever.

Challenge

I have been challenged by the trainer... he's for a week and i gotta work out on my own :(  he said if i don't lose a pound then my planks are pushed up to a full minute.

So what have i been doing?  Practicing my planks!  I finally got a full 30seconds even after working out my legs.

Eating right is the easy part. Ok.  No its not,  but just to lose ONE pound it is easy to do with just eating right. And the weekends are the hardest time to eat right.
At work,  i can only eat what i bring. And is easy to bring good stuff. It also helps when the bank account is running low.

This morning scale said I'm down... but i still have 4days before the actual weigh in.

Day 98

Finally joined a gym! And got myself a cute personal trainer!  Modivation is the fact that I've paid money... not going isn't an option.

12 days later and I've lost 5 lbs!! My goal for this month is to lose 5lbs and I'm on my way to beating this goal. 

I've been so busy with working out and logging my foods and working and sleeping that i forget to blog. But now that things are looking in the right direction, I'm proud to brag!

Day 33

Completed day one and kept to my calories!

Day 31

I've been good work my calories!  Not with walking, but i gotta start somewhere...

Day 27

Well, not working out has proved to be stupid. I'm maintaining if not gaining.  I have the portion control down,  now i just need to say no to pizza and other high fatty foods.  Getting tired of soup and salads.

I only have a couple days left till the next weigh in... and it's not looking good.

Instead of rewards for losing weight, i think i need to pull money into the piggy bank for the weight i have NOT  lost.
Example: i should have lost 5lbs by Feb 1st... so if i don't, i deposit $5 into the bank.  After a few months i may feel the squeeze.  And if nothing by July, i get Jenny Craig

Day 7

I did my fasting blood work this morning.  Hope all is better.

Update: i know I'm only supposed to weigh in on Mondays,  but I've lost 3lbs!!! Keeping up the diet and next month stay the workout.

Happy new year

Since the new year started I've decided i need to lose weight. I've been eating better. Gonna see how the first month goes.  Didn't walk with Mario yesterday. Was kinda a rough first day back. So much that i couldn't get up this morning. Slept 12hrs. Ready to fall back asleep too.  made sure not to eat too much though.

Tomorrow is Wednesday and a new day. Maybe I'll walk with elva. I don't like to, but it's a walk and that's what i need. And soon mario will catch the fever. That's what i need to focus on... getting mario interested.

As i "train" mario, I'll be training myself :-)